Been a while since I updated.

I've been pretty swamped with school, art portfolio, friend issues, rejection, and family pressure. To say it's the slowest trainwreck I've had to sit through wouldn't even cover half of it. First off, those bastard people from the University lied to me!! They told me to get into the Faculty of Arts I need my damn art portfolio of 12-15 pieces!! D: My school just had it's post-secondary fair on Friday and it turns out that I didn't need to make one if I was only gonna be in it for a year before I transferred into Education. >.< Damn it, I just wasted like 2.5 months working my buttocks off on the portfolio. ;_;
Secondly, I'm sick of my family. I don't want to hear how great it would be if I was a teacher every day. Day in - day out.
"You know what would suit you really well? Being a teacher. You get good benefits like 2 months off every year for summer break, health care coverage, you get to draw every day..."
I digress, I help my art teacher at my school mark, organize and generally help her get her crap together when she's swamped. She doesn't get to draw every day(she only draws nowadays if she's commissioned), to think that's all that an art teacher would do is ridiculous. I'm not going to buy into that damn airy, fairy crap that my family wants me to believe in so that I'll be a teacher. It's ironic seeing on how I wanted to be a teacher since Gr. 5-6. These past 2 years have been really trying with my family pressuring me into being one and it doesn't help when they talk to me about it that they make it sound as if I don't become a teacher I'll suddenly drop dead right there - that there's no future for me other then a teacher. They always go on about how it's ultimately my choice in the end when it really isn't if they keep harassing me to be a god damn teacher every day. The "deal" Tina(my mother) made with me was that if I didn't become a teacher she didn't want me in the family and she didn't want to support me when I go to a post-secondary institution. If that isn't twisting my arm then I must be retarded.

God, I'm so tired from having to listen to all their rants about how glorious I'll be if I become one. They aren't doing this to any of my other 3 siblings so why me? Oh , wait! That's right, I'm the only one that isn't good at math OR science like a regular stereotypical Asian; I only like to draw therefore according to Tina's logic: Art + Bad math = Homeless. RAWRGH.D<
Honestly, I'm forcing myself to like the prospect of teaching. I mean before I wanted to do it to help kids because I was sick of having teachers that didn't care and only wanted to pick up their cheques at the end of the day. But, now any reason I try to think up and hold onto isn't worth subjecting the rest of my life to teaching. I wanted to do some other things with my life but whenever I mentioned it they all panic and go into "Damage Control" and go through the whole spiel about how great being a teacher is and I'm getting so sick of it. Right now, if I gave in and became a teacher I'd be just living not living - if that makes sense. >_>

I guess, I'll wait it out and see what I do with my life. Thanks for reading and sorry that every time I update I'm always complaining. =_=

Take care, guys!! ~